nothing and everything . . .

this year has been . . . i can't seem to find the right word for it, and it is not even half way over.  so much has happened:  good, wonderful, awful, and heartbreaking.  when so much happens in such short time it really takes a while for things to sink in and for me to process them.  can you ever really process tragedy?  can you ever truly appreciate the amazing?   i don't know.


here is what i do (sort of) know:


there is nothing new under the sun.  everything we think we have discovered and invented is just a new way of doing something that has been done before.  heartbreak is not new and neither is joy.  these have been experienced by others since the beginning of time.


however . . .


everything is new to us.  our hurt and our happiness is new to us.  when something wonderful happens, it is not the first time, but it is our new experience with it.  the same goes for tragedy and heartbreak, we have all experienced it, but it feel brand new and just as terrible each time.  


we can question.  why good things?  why bad things?  but if we knew where would any joy be in our lives and how would we learn?  how would we trust and have faith?  


i know i feel much more hopeful, and at peace knowing that God is in control and i am here to watch and learn and share.  


nothing and everything . . . we have it all. 


okay, so i have purged my so called deep thoughts and will now end with a few pictures of my everythings!

cool super kids dude!

 sunrise at "the ranch"

 sweet kisses from daddy

 happy mother's day

 relaxing on the rock

 hanging with opa

 ready to play in the water

 "cheese"

 bathing beauty

 cousin fun time!